As of now, I’ve been two weeks as an inpatient in a rather-expensive [by my standards] holistic rehab (can’t really say much because of some stupid confidentiality agreement…but fuck that! It doesn’t cover my thoughts about it…).
Anyways, I have to say this detox phase really sucks…like REALLY SUCKS! It’s horrible and don’t let anybody fool you into thinking it’s the “most comfortable part of it“ like they told me. Even though I’ve been on some medicine it still feels like i’m doing this cold turkey… and somehow makes me realize it would have been almost the same doing it by me onesie in my home.
I’ve got to say: Quitting drugs ain’t that fucking hard, it’s the staying clean part of it that fucks you up and messes up with your mind.
Anyways, I’m still supposedly “detoxing”, so I can’t say I’m some sort of expert on this shit. Just makes me feel a bit more experienced than before. And, yes, go ahead and ask me: WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING??! (It’s what I’m thinking right now…)
I’ve got two more weeks coming up. The question is: will I stay here or sign myself out before it’s time?